disclaimer: this post is going to be very super freakishly emo-ish.

i am definitely asking for too much, perhaps, more than what i deserved. i dont expect it. it just came to me. yes i had it but i'm not prepared to lose it as yet. sometimes i wonder whether is it just me, or is it them, who will always come up with lame but surprisingly reasonable excuses? i cant help but feel inferior. i'm not smart, i'm fat, i'm short, i'm boy-ish, not ur typical kind of girl-next-door. why is it that i must always lose it? i know my flaws and i know it too well. and thats the reason why i am writing this. i'm sorry if i was too demanding. i'm sorry if i was being ambiguous. i guess i was too selfish.

u made me realise how much love can change our lives; sometimes for the better, others for the worst. and for that i thank u. i will keep my promise dont u worry. i have gotten more than i ever wanted now. and i will not ask for more. its all yours. =)

ps. this is not dedicated to anyone in particular. just my random thought fishings.

oak abe abe.

i've not been updating lately cause i am so super busy with school. my exam dates are drawing soo near but i am so very not prepared. pfft. now thanks to hafiz and handry, this sudden urge to mug are overpowering my thoughts. hoots. *boleh meletup sey kepala* chey bedek ah. sorry ah people. i just feel like rambling nonsense on my blog right now. wa wa wa wa wa wa wa wa. oh a'ah. btw kan. i'm having a hard time forcing myself to study. as much as i want to mug, i just cant. because number 1, i'm lazy and number 2, i am lazy. not forgetting number 3, sheer laziness again. wah. kalau aku continue gini, mampos laki aku mati tak makan. hahaha. tak nak masak, tak nak kemas, tak nak cuci baju. hahahaha. sorry ah lahling. pilan pilan kayuh ah, wa veli shure wa boleh make a goot waif for u one. heh. ok. i think i've had enough. i wanna go study. *cheybok! macam paham siak!* ok dah dah. i'm not going to update for another eon so yeah. sorry dorry strawberry.

ps. i miss you very much lah, apek.

``Mat Jenin