its been more than a week Nadim ended. but now i just realised. i have not gotten over it. yet. gosh. how i missed those trainings. how i missed those dances. how i missed those songs. just when i thought i was moving along fine. idiot. i hate this ya know. i hate the part where memories by memories start to flood your mind; the funny moments we get scolded for doing something stupid. the happy moments when we managed to sing everything in tune. the tough moments when people started to go sick one at a time. the angry moments when some people sabotaged the whole team and caused the whole team to flop. and especially. the sad moment when we put up our last show and everything ends. *sighs* how come this is so hard? it wasnt that hard before. god. i cant believe myself. i am not moving on. i am still browsing through the pictures and videos of nadim every night before i go to sleep. i am still waking up each and every day, anticipating that there will be training at rp. n i am still saying n singing my lines throughout the whole day, where ever i may be. damn. i need to be strong. i'll get out of my mind if i dont get over this whole 'nadim' thing. nadim-ians. u guys really created that lasting impact in my life. much more than anyone ever did. as yet. i missed u guys. i really do. ='(
``Mat Jenin
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