disclaimer: this post is going to be very super freakishly emo-ish.

i am definitely asking for too much, perhaps, more than what i deserved. i dont expect it. it just came to me. yes i had it but i'm not prepared to lose it as yet. sometimes i wonder whether is it just me, or is it them, who will always come up with lame but surprisingly reasonable excuses? i cant help but feel inferior. i'm not smart, i'm fat, i'm short, i'm boy-ish, not ur typical kind of girl-next-door. why is it that i must always lose it? i know my flaws and i know it too well. and thats the reason why i am writing this. i'm sorry if i was too demanding. i'm sorry if i was being ambiguous. i guess i was too selfish.

u made me realise how much love can change our lives; sometimes for the better, others for the worst. and for that i thank u. i will keep my promise dont u worry. i have gotten more than i ever wanted now. and i will not ask for more. its all yours. =)

ps. this is not dedicated to anyone in particular. just my random thought fishings.

oak abe abe.

i've not been updating lately cause i am so super busy with school. my exam dates are drawing soo near but i am so very not prepared. pfft. now thanks to hafiz and handry, this sudden urge to mug are overpowering my thoughts. hoots. *boleh meletup sey kepala* chey bedek ah. sorry ah people. i just feel like rambling nonsense on my blog right now. wa wa wa wa wa wa wa wa. oh a'ah. btw kan. i'm having a hard time forcing myself to study. as much as i want to mug, i just cant. because number 1, i'm lazy and number 2, i am lazy. not forgetting number 3, sheer laziness again. wah. kalau aku continue gini, mampos laki aku mati tak makan. hahaha. tak nak masak, tak nak kemas, tak nak cuci baju. hahahaha. sorry ah lahling. pilan pilan kayuh ah, wa veli shure wa boleh make a goot waif for u one. heh. ok. i think i've had enough. i wanna go study. *cheybok! macam paham siak!* ok dah dah. i'm not going to update for another eon so yeah. sorry dorry strawberry.

ps. i miss you very much lah, apek.

``Mat Jenin

u talked to me in school just now. glad u did. because i guess the first fault was by u and its ur responsibility to clear ur stuffs with me. so around 5 mins ago i went to ur blog [for the second time in my entire life] to say thank u but then i saw ur tagboard. obviously u have friends who are just purely over reacting. i thought of replying to it but i guess that'll just pollute ur tagboard. so if u read this, do help me pass the msg to ur friends:

stop being childish girls. u do know it is ur friend who should come and confront me and not me going to her because as i've said before, i dont even KNOW she existed in school. so how am i supposed to look for someone whom i dont even know existed in the first place? persistency, people. if u are not persistent, it just so shows how much u care about the issue. sheesh. dont tell me u're not much smarter than that, girls. *winks*

oh and to one those.
dont try me. u soo dont know the meaning of outbitch-ing. =))

``Mat Jenin

itu bakui, bakui, angkat bakui punyia, bakui itu.
ini bakui, BAGUT AHHHH!

tengok itu olang jialan macam babi hutan, muka pun silupa babi hutan.
aiya! itu mmg babi hutan nah!!!!!!

oak abe abe.

newcomers

oak abe abe.
this post is solely dedicated to one of my fellow schoolmates.
an amateur schoolmate who dedicates her latest post to me.

dear you.
i got to know about that like about 2 days ago. and i am wondering why u said u've heard A LOT about me and my mouth. hello miss. 'a lot' needs time. 2 days? nah. surely it wont be enough. i guess people have been saying things to you that even i dont know. whatever it is i just want you to know that i am so very not intimidated by you. what more you in my relationship matter. sheesh. i'm more experienced than you, my friend. and what's this about me judging you? you should be more concerned about how your friends judge you. and not me who dont even know that you existed in school. oh btw. i knew you've been stalking my blog so yeah. go ahead girl. stalk some more. i got ur bloglink from bloghopping only yesterday and unfortunately i was greeted by that post. great sight huh. everybody have got their own eye candy in school and i'm not surprised my bf was one of them. so dont make it look as if i'm the bitchy one here. relfect through your matured mind; you are the bitchy one. about screaming to my bf's face, i've got only 2 words for you: APA SIAK. these matters are very trivial you know. and i'm wondering why u are being so defensive in your post. anyway. u dont know me sister so you should be the one who should stop judging me. oh and a piece of advice: dont be too proud of your 2 years of relationship. people change. even boyfriends. =)

k dah. i'm done. korang2 yang tau hal ehwal saye ni sila2 lah pergi bloghopping. you will never know when someone will be bitching about you right smack in your face. and the best thing is you dont even know it! heh. i'll be meeting lahling in a couple more hours sebab saye very gian nak mandi laut! i've been indecisive about this due to torrential flood of assignments a have to do. but what the heck. i dont care. so EAST COAST HERE I COME! *jumps in my bathtub and starts splashing around*

to whom this post may concern.
jutaan ampun dan maaf seandainya saya terkasar bahasa di atas. ini adalah atas alasan2 yang munasabah. saya tak sangka ada orang yang menyampaikan sesuatu pada awak, yang tak pernah terlintas di fikiran saya. jadi kalau awak nampak saya di sekolah, sudi2 lah menegur sapa walaupun setelah awak membaca luahan hati saya di atas tu. kerana saya juga seperti awak; manusia yang mampu menyinggung perasaan orang lain tanpa disengajakan. =)

SAMBUNGAN

oh. i forgot about this mambang's photos with me. coincidentally, his costume matched mine. and so we became the infamous retro pair for that day. [not that we werent infamous already. heh.]

ok go. i'm done here. =)

RETRO

oak abe abe.

i now present to u all these pictures that were taken during National/Institute/BeYourself Day. heh. as u can see, the theme is retro and thus, the costumes. the tiring part was when we scampered all around bugis to find the shop. but the fun part is we managed to persuade people to join us and dress up as outrageously as well. teehee. amirah, rai'hanah, hafizah, hafiz, rahman, raj, candice, rizal, marcus, peng rong and me. =)) i am soooo super lazy to explain all the fun things i had going on in school that day. so i'll just let the pictures from fb to do the talking for me yah. hee. oh btw. i had so many eyes staring at me that day, and soo many people whom i've never noticed in school that came up to me to snap a pic. cool or what? hah. ok dah. baik aku stopp berbual. malas beb. sorry dorry strawberry. =P

``Mat Jenin

sick

oak abe abe.
been down with fever and cough since monday. i was left with no energy to even stand up. highest temp was 39.8. sheesh. rabak kan. but we're left with no money to go to the doctor. so i self-treated myself with personal medications. lahling sent me home on monday and he cared for me till i fell asleep. awww. so sweet. *maceh* anyway. i'm feeling much better now. thanks to friends - amirah&hafizah who brought for me bubur. heh. cute sey korang. i'm feeling a lot better today. all energised to start the school day tmrw. so yeah. see u guys in school. chiows.

ps. when ur sick, u finally know who ur true friends are.

``Mat Jenin

racial harmony

oak abe abe.

these are a few photos of me during racial harmony day.

kalau nak tengok yang lain tu, silalah cari sendiri di facebook ye.

malas nak upload uh.

sorry dorry strawberry.

heh. =P

``Mat Jenin

boyfriends and babies.

oak abe abe.

this post is solely about me and my boyfriend.

oh. and a baby. heh.

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i love my boyfriend.

ooh. and i love babies.

hahaha.

ok. next post,

racial harmony day.

``Mat Jenin

ATTENTION ATTENTION!

this is a request post.

ehem ehem.

Saya dengan sukacitanya mengisyhtiarkan bahawa zulkifli bin hassan telah pun menubuhkan sebuah blog.

myneighbourischinese.blogspot.com

heh.

ok. i'm done.

``Mat Jenin

oak abe abe.

been waiting for lahling to send me pictures of what i've been up to these days.
so that at least i can post something up.
but apparently he's just too busy with his house chores.
so korang2 tahan je lah eh.
ok go.

ps. Yang. saye masih tak tau sey tengkorak ape tu. hmm.

``Mat Jenin

lovelovelovelove

PU3 DESTRESSING PERIOD

dont ask.

this is my personal fav. i dont know why.

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SASTERA OUTING - CIKGU'S FAREWELL [17/06]

the next 2 pics are f***ing crappy.

i'll miss u cikgu. =(

yay! ARCADE!

straight + wavy = destruction. hoho.

``Mat Jenin